Oh, Lynn is so eff-ing bored now! Someone please entertain me! ~ dots, just finish doing some practices on my mathematics, {: Wellwell, i wana practice everything from the start and i'm right now at Square roots, Cube roots? ._. And i still got a long way to go..well , wokeup like 8.30 am, wash up then surf the web before going out. Think i wokeup too early cause it was like still so early? Bused down to Northpoint to grab some bites..Had soya bean with pearls and bought chicken for myself. {: And that stupid Hanwen wanted kaya waffles so i bought it for him. Waited so long for him larh, trained down with him to somerset lurh. I was happy because there was someone whom i can talk to during my journey(: That wont be bored! On the way, chit chatted with him larh, ! And that stupid Liuhan got foc breakfast to eat still wana grumble that the waffles too soft, kaninah! -.- Compared to those in Africa, you're counted lucky :P
Reached Cp mac, still got a lil time so we chit-chatted..with that stupid Ah yap. haha, he such a pervert ! Cannot stand him sial, ._. Punched in and did counter, hanwen was my runner and lucky i didnt get alot of refunds today so i'm very happy, (: Break was fun, Subash was another one. Kept " yamateh" ! T-T Ate nuggets only cause fries is fatening, :x ! Did manage to steal some from hanwen and that siaopeh, put dontknow how many packets of salt and pepper, siaokia! ._. After break, punched in and did runner for hanwen, lol! Actually pleaded Jane to let me do runner cause counter is so god-damn boring! Punched out 5 plus. Supposedly to punch out at 5 but customer in larh, grrw! Waited for him to to come lurh..while waiting , was like disturbing the other crews at dk and mc'cafe..haha, that stupid yun rui..lol! She's stupid lar okay? {: Hmms, i found out that actually...Louise isnt that bad?..Lols, i not "zhao fan" or wad lurh, but it's a fact. After i ounch out, was like standing at dk disturbing the crews, she didnt say anything but actually talked to me..i was shocked that she would care so much about me asking me what happened to my back or something?..After he camed, we when to walk around..i was god-damn warm can? Kept perspiring like mad! :x Same old pattern, went to wisma..lols..Walking with my uniform, xiasuey :x ! rebounced back to Khatib and met hanwen lurh..zzz, -.- Reached khatib went to his house awhile to see his portfolio..nice though :P
haha, awhile later jiu went home. Finally, i had a peace of mind at home. Nobody talked to me, neither do i {: Haha, was like staying in the room for the half day? Lols, after bathing..now only left my stupid Daddy, sisto and Brother. Daddy is like talking to the walls larh..kept talking to me like a retard but i'm just not answering. I just dont wana answer him. I'm just this stubborn, so what i wana do , no one can stop me. And this concerns my future, not for anyone to meddle with. And i know what i'm doing is right or wrong. it's for no one to comment on. I have freedom in life and i'll get it. Until now, after so much that i've said, it seems like no one gets me. i always stick to that word : Independent. That's how i walk down the path of my life. I cant just let my dreams all be demolished. Just by abiding to what my parents want me to do. It's unfair to me, very. I've got my own talents to show, but not to hide it. Everyone has their own specialities. it's in their soul, and it shall always be. No one can ever force me to do things that i dont want to, i have a choice. A choice of my life. And if i dont think about my future, who will? it's my future, not my parents, so they wont understand how important it is to me. And of course they wont, why? Reasons simple, they dont take it seriously because it just seemed to be none of their business. Well , i can only say that they're a failure in bringing up their kids, because they dont open their mouths to ask and try to understand more about their own child that the child has to put up with everything she can and not letting all her feelings out. Seriously, that hurts alot. To have to endure so much to put up with their mentality and choices for their own child, not asking us if we have comments or opinions. Right now, this is not even talking about how disrespectful i can be to say such things in this manner, but , do they respect you and your decision? No, the answer is always a no to me. Because, everytime i tried hard, just to work harder or even a slight improvement, they wont even be happy. The satisfaction is not there. So i always think that what i do is not enough and kept pushing myself. That is the only way i can do. That'll at least bring me up to somewhere. I'm seriously very fed up with what Mummy and Daddy is thinking. They never try to understand me even from right before. They are always selfish in what they're thinking. It's never positive, so i'm always the one trying so hard, pushing myself up. In fact, this is struggling. Just a slip on the peddle and you'll fall right back to one. But to me, even if you fall, you have two fucking legs to stand up again, and climb up from one. I really hope Daddy and Mummy is gonna see this, because what i said is true. I want them to think from the positive side of view and not always the negative one. I want them not to be so selfish by just thinking for themselves. I want them to think what's right and what's wrong for me. That's what i want. Reason's simple like how i put it. So i wont care people who are hindering my way, or stopping me. I can say that , well..you cant. One thing which is confirmed, they wont.