Haha, people please be jealous, (: Lol....Christmas eve celebrated with Sweat/. Because of some reasons. I cant deny this Christmas SUCKs! Santa's kinda stupid yarh? Or maybe rudoulph's nose wasnt red and shiny and he cant lead the way? Thanks sweat for being such a good friend. (: Lol, Friday worked . Lol, after work felt like fucked. Thanks to my stupid bro. Fucker. -,- And today...worse. By some things which i dont even wana think about it. I felt so ...? I dont know what to say.. Punched out and train back w Hanwen, Precious and Ming. Met mummy at Northpoint. Lol..shop awhile. Not working tomr..but guessed i'll be going shopping ALONE. And yup i'm used to it. Being alone is always the best right now to me. xi guan jiu hao.

Past few days alot of things happened which right now i'm afraid of losing things that are so precious to me. Eventually, i'm still prepared for the worse. this time round it was the worst ever. Now i felt, what i ever wished for could never happen. Sometimes i felt neglected and seriously i do. It's like i dont ever exist and i'm transparent. i felt like thin air. every little things i do not a single soul will take note, and not even him. The communication there has a problem. Especially him.. all the little things i do..he didnt even give a fucking care. I really hate people who pin-point and fucking not ask themself what they did wrong . And right now, i'm really not gonna hack care about anything. Seriously i'm not gonna fucking give a big damn of anything. i guess that'll do. Perhaps people will get a feeling of what i feel. And this kinda of feeling sucks! This'll make people regret. i've had enough of everything and i'm putting a full stop to it. I'll leave everything behind and walk away. Till i finally find Happiness. Wonder when 'll i be happy? This day still have a long way to go. Right now i'm unable to smile like how i always used to be. Never.

And i maybe closing down blog and friendster soon. it's no point since there isnt any improvements at all. I felt like a Fucking clown. Yarh, indeed i am. And it'll depend on my mood whether i wana reopen it or what. No point if i dont see what i want. I've had enough.