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Monday, May 25, 2009
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9:17 AM
♥ 26 May 2009
Hello, i'm back. Happy that my com revived! {: Special thanks to Uncle Ming Xian :D Ha, finally laaa :D Gotten back most of our scripts alr, and it's really h.o.p.e.l.e.s.s! Not gonna broad over it anymore, nahhh! Okay, i'm like so lonely and bored now -,- Cereal went to KOTA TINGGI... i'm sad :( And i wish to see him now, in the past 5 days is nothing, but now?... I dont wish to see him either, and YOU should know....cyril aw. These few days, many things happened. Between me and you. I may be wrong and i admit, and you too. I hope 3 days later when i see you it wont be like the past few days.. Praying hard. Quarrels have been going on and on for so long alr....and think the both of us are tired alr.. 01.06.08, our 2 year anniversary is coming in a few days time, but seriously, i'm not looking forward to it. Whether it's gonna last, i've no comments to it. These few days, seriously i'm v.v.v.v. SAD :{ Because of many things you f****ing did, it really hurt me alot. And feel fortunate that i didnt blow my top la, arse. Hai, i just can't forget it. It's not a matter of forgive and forget, but it's those fucking things you did. I wonder have it ever come acrossed your mind. And i H.A.T.E that i'm so soft-hearted. I shouldnt be, i mean i MUST not. But i don't know why, to you. And i hate this kinda feeling. I HATE IT! Our relationship, drifting far apart. Wonder if we will last, after what you did, i only can say you give me best but also worst. Cyril, until now... i finally realised how much i don't understand you. Didn't believe you 'll be sucha person. I seriously cannot accept this fucking fact. THIS BLOW IS TOO FUCKING BIG TO ME. But to you, it's just like AN ANT. i wonder what more else will you do man? And now, i've decided, to let go of everything and give you what you want. DO whatever shit you wana do and i won't care less. you inflicted all these pains to me, and you hurt me so damn fucking badly. I can even cry you a river. THIS IS THE LAST TIME, LAST CHANCE I'M GIVING MYSELF, I CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE. I'M V.V.V.TIRED NOW, ALL I WANT IS TO STAY AWAY FROM ALL THIS THINGS, F.R.E.E.D.O.M What is LOVE? what exactly is it? I wonder.... I feel as if i dont exist in this world, i feel as though i'm a stranger from somewhere even i don't know., what am i? Do i have a status? Why must we have feelings? WHY? WHy must we always tear and cry for one another? WHy do Quarrels always occur? Why can't we just delete stuffs that we don't wana think or never come across our mind? Why do i not cherish life? Why do we love? Why do i always reflect? I feel so fragile now, my heart, aching like never before. Tearing every single time i think of it. It's so fucking hard to forget unless that person were to pierce through your heart. This wound, it will never heal. Enough is enough. F****ing tired! @#$%^* BLEEDING LOVE, Special thanks to those people who cared for me, i know you know {: Ilu peppo. <3 |